Myself

Quiet reflections of a soul long lost and forgotten She stared at me like a memory  Cold and frozen in thought A grimace rested on her face where once a beautiful smile gleefully rested Finally she spoke Soft and deliberate  Aiming at my own reflective thoughts  Pointing out all the parts of my life that made…

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She's my best friend

She’s my best friend Truthfully  As she sits across the table sipping her coffee in silence I marvel at how beautiful she is and how lucky I am  just for knowing her We often sit silently  Sharing sweet smiles over light conversation  Knowing that it took a lifetime of pain to create these perfect moments …

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The Shadow 

I live in the darkness of a shadow It extends years before I was even known to exist The pain it carries is deep and burns deep in the soul of my loved ones I try to reach out from behind Crawling on hands and knees Begging  Crying  Praying knowing prayers are never heard One…

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I'm a dick…

I’m kind of a dick sometimes. Not intentionally, most of the time. If it wasn’t for Facebook I probably wouldn’t keep in touch with my family and friends. It’s not that I don’t think about them, even though, if I’m being honest, I don’t spend hours thinking about them. I miss Cincinnati. As crazy as…

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An essay on sadness

Some days I want to sit and cry I’m not sad I’m not sure what I am My heart is at peace As peace as it can be When my anxiety doesn’t take hold of the wheel anyway Even then I’m not sad I don’t know what I am I am Something else Someone else…

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What scares me?

What ifs don’t scare me. Neither do what would be or what could have been. I don’t live my life by the fear of dying. Fuck, we’re all going to die. I’m not afraid of the weather, of water, or of any other element that stands before me. I’ve stood in the crashing waves of…

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The day before…

It was late in the afternoon, and the fog was still settling over the coast like a blanket tightly tucked around us. The wind was blowing softly through the tall grass, and we walked just close enough to speak softly to one another. Even though we weren’t talking our souls seemed to always carry on…

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Asleep…

I’ll never forget you In another life we make such wonderful lovers We sit so separate as we sit so close together I’ll never get you Loving me that way Loving me with all your heart Loving me I’ll never wonder what was I’ll never forget I’ll always be in your memory  and you’ll always…

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Suicide Prevention 

Robin Williams was one of my favorite people. His character in Dead Poets Society made me fall in love with literature on a whole new level.  Most of my life I suffered from deep depression. Everyone who really knows me knows this. Even when I’m down now my closest friends, and my dearest loved ones…

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Love, fear, and karma…

I don’t need to hate people. I don’t need to wish them a bad life, or have any desire to wish any harm come to them. Karma catches up with people. It has with me, and it has with you. I have only love in my heart. Even the people everyone else tells me I…

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