Morning Thoughts on Self Forgiveness

I’m sitting here in Medford Oregon looking out my window as the sun rises on Mount McLoughlin. I can’t help to think about how different my life is, and how different I feel. Forgiving myself was the best decision I’ve ever made. I’m healthier both mentally and physically. I have a partner, Carrie, that is…

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Nothing

As I so unlovable? My longing for you dances on my lips Reaching to touch you Wishing you would touch me Knowing you’ll never really want me My soul reaches for pieces of my heart  My heart reaches for you You won’t reach out to me All I’m left with is desire  My heart falls …

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I want to walk outside Walk deep into the ocean and keep walking Riding the waves falling heavy into the tides Just like I fell in love with you Humming tunes that seagulls understand while wearing my heart like an albatross  Fully on my sleeve Broken or not The pieces creating a wrinkled map The…

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#YouTube question time 

If you found out that you only had a week to live what would you do? Would you change anything? I’ll read the answers in an upcoming YouTube video. 

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Sunflowers

I have a dark stain on my soul but you are outright evil Like sun burnt sunflowers begging for life Taking what your given Love, hearts, and hands and then twisting them like a scheming alchemist to your own intention  Your words spread lies that would embarrass Judas  Your voice spreads misinformation and misdirection like…

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#vlog on #youtube

Listen to me talk in circles and talk about touching you. Wait, what? It’s not quite what it seems, I promise. It’s my first vlog. A lot of readers have been asking me to post a weekly vlog, so I’ll try.

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poem, poetry, poet, photography, photographer

I live in a dark place A place where I have no voice and all the base has been taken out of the music I only hear the drums beating in the back of my head Keeping me awake Night after night The clock ticking tick tock tick tock I want to wake up but…

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( A #poem about #depression ) In plain sight

An ocean of regret swallows me as I fight for each breath My anxiety and depression push me under each wave likes masked bandits robbing me of my life My time Our time is so short and here I am in a self-induced coma afraid to step out of my own front door Afraid to…

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