Watching you collect you scattered clothes and pack your bags is heartbreaking
Our time together is so brief, yet neither wants to be here
We fit so well together, like a puzzle piece
A missing piece exists
It keeps up forever apart
You walk back and forth humming
I’m not even sure which song it is
Your smile, my God, those lips
So many times I desired to kiss them
To bite them
To feel them over my body, gently
Like the rain falling softly over the ocean
And I have
So many times…
But this morning you’re leaving
Maybe for good
You may never return to me
A part of me is truly broken over this
A part of me rejoices that I’ll be free from your whims
Your resentment
Your rage
You…
Here I sit alone
At the head of the bed
The bed we would share in screaming ecstasy and joyful fulfillment so many times
It now sits as an empty shell of what we were
A ghost of you
Just an object that helps my mind retain the memory of your carved body
The gods went out of their way when they created your body
It’s still no reason to ask you to stay
I’ll never know another like you
Your love
Your passion
Your rage
I stop daydreaming long enough to see you slumped in front of me
Hoodie pulled up, leopard print bags in hand
Your hands are shaking with forever goodbyes
Your eyes are begging me to ask you to stay
And those lips
Those lips that were once my playground
You drop your bags and throw your arms around me
Holding me tight I feel your tears on my bare back
Then you kiss me hard, so hard
Harder than you had ever kissed me
I knew this was goodbye
Goodbye for now or goodbye forever
“Don’t get up, please. Please don’t follow me out.” You say to me.
I just smile
I don’t know what else to do
We both know it’s over
Sometimes things just have to be over
And then without a second glance back you walk out
This room is so silent
I’ve never heard it so silent
In the background I hear the thump of the end of the record we were listening to earlier that morning
Maybe it’s just my heart breaking
Thump
Thump
Thump
Thump
Thump
I walk to the window just to catch a final glance
You don’t look back
You never look back
Now you’re gone
My one true love
If you’ve never had to tell your soulmate goodbye then you’ll never understand this pain
I didn’t understand
Once again I am alone
