Goodbyes echo like sirens
I can count every expression in the mirror behind every bottle placed on the shelf of the bar
but I still can’t forget your face when I said goodbye
One day I’ll leave the earth
I’m able to get past all my sins
But that expression will haunt me in my next life
You wanted me to leave but still seemed surprised when I left
I didn’t tell you I needed you
I didn’t tell you I wanted you
I just left
I see people laughing in the mirror behind the bar
Happy faces everywhere
Except the one looking back at me
Lost love letters
Lost words
You said you wanted to leave it and as much as I fought it I did
Where’s that leave me?
Alone again
Another gin and tonic
Another bar
Another sleepless night
I sit here alone tracing lines in the rings of moisture left from my glass on the bar
Sitting in a room full of people I understand that I am alone
but I’m still not lonely
Like that last turn dollar bill I tipped with
Let them say what they want
I still love you
and it’s killing me
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