First I’d like to thank everyone who has messaged me asking why I wasn’t posting. You are all so wonderful and I am lucky to have you in my life.
So what’s going on?
I’m still writing but many months ago Carrie and I split up. She was my driving force for writing in many ways. A muse held above all muses one could say. In the end we had succumb to life, overthinking and our own vision of how we should love one another. Leave no doubt that I love her and wish her nothing but a perfect life. She’s an amazing woman and I was lucky to have her in my life while I did.
Well, I tried Tinder, full disclosure one of my employees signed me up because they were “tired of seeing me mope more than usual”, and even though I met a few amazing people over all it isn’t for me. However, I am very content with life as it is. I have waves of misery that come and go. I rely deeply on my meditation and exercise, I’ve lost 40 pounds btw.
I’ll be posting once a week for a personal “journal” type entry. It’s something I always wanted to do but haven’t. I am trying to finish “Love Letters” but have let life get in my way. That will be out soon. I’ll go back to a weekly poem post, but this time I am going to try to track them better. I will be posting audio/video of me reading like I wanted to in the past. That will start in a couple weeks if not sooner. More than anything I want to get to know myself again. I want to spend time with my kids and read more. I’m as close to happy as I’ve been in a long time. Things are hard and aren’t perfect, but I wouldn’t change that for anything.