Except in Dreams 

Trying to put my finger on an emotion

Standing in rains deep in February cold
Watching pictures of myself fade like memories
Holding close to thoughts of myself that have no meaning
I have no meaning
Deep in beliefs that matter to no one
Mattering to no one
No one 
Hoping this year brings brighter things
I find myself wondering
As I get lost in myself
Into thoughts I don’t enjoy
One more night wouldn’t matter
Hopeless wondering 
Hopeless places never revisited 
Places I’ll never walk again except in dreams